Going Within – Meditation
The following is a series of excerpts from an essay by Richard Rose, titled Going Within.
It is published in a short book, pamphlet, titled Meditation by Richard Rose and available from:
The ultimate aim of meditation is to go within.
Going within means to find Reality by finding the Real part of ourselves.
The big trouble with all forms of meditation is the inability to hold the mind on a given project long enough to achieve results.
Human weaknesses include: forgetfulness, fatigue, fear, the appetites, pleasure-inclination, laziness, rationalisation and procrastination.
Since we are inclined to forget, we must provide ourselves while awake with reminders to keep us awake and to keep us aware of that which we have to do.
In order to prevent forgetting it is advisable to have something daily before our view: A room, a chair, a notebook or journal, a picture, a bracelet or some item that can be worn, reading material that you find inspirational, a time dedicated each day to this project, and so on.
When we begin to meditate in the attempt to go within we should simply observe ourselves. We cannot do it simply. It is a very profound task or attempt.
If we are truly observing ourselves, we will see that we are dichotomizing ourselves. And then we will see that the process of dichotomizing ourselves is not real, that it is all a visualisation. And we do not wish to become a victim of visualisation. However, once we have run the gamut of this multiple splitting, we will suddenly become aware…… we will become aware of awareness. We will then have placed our finger on consciousness, and distinguished it from sensation and perception.
Present-time self-observation should be the observation of thought processes, not any present-time visualisation of recent scenes involving the body.
We must view perception as both environmental observation, and a projection from our own mind that has been adjusted by that mind.
The mere fact that we can be aware of perception, means that perception is not us. And yet, there is some of that which we perceive that is really projected from us, in an adjusting mind-process.
This latter “us” is not the same self that is aware of perception. This latter “us” or projector, is really a qualifying perception-apparatus.
Our first taste of Maya or illusion comes to us with the realisation that we are all projecting some, at least, of this picture-show of life. With it also comes the idea that somehow we are all in agreement on this projection, except in isolated cases, or in particular areas of thinking that have an individually intrinsic understanding. This means that from birth, we are mentally adjusting and projecting in harmony with other beings’ minds, and with such harmony that we must conclude that there is a bond between the minds of all animals (at least), so that the mind which projects, is universal, and not the sole property of our individual skull.
To isolate this projection-process for thinking purpooses, and to distinguish it from the percepts of self-observation which may be incidents of process-observation, let us use the symbol AMPP, or Adjustment of Mind-Projected Perceptions. All physical experience is AMPP, i.e, sensory experience. All visualisation is AMPP.
Direct Experience, or DE, leads to true experience, or to Mind, capital M.
So that when we speak of “us” with a small u, or the self, we mean the association of imperfect sensory perception and recordings, as well as the voices, egos or appetites, all of which colour the picture ( physical) that is witnessed by the mind. This “us” or self might be called personality. When we speak of Us, capital U, we speak of the final observer, or essence, or final awareness.
So that when we speak of the mind, let us distinguish between the mind of adjustment, and the Mind of awareness. The former is manifesting or manifested mind, and the latter is unmanifested, unparticularised, mind-stuff.
Thus we have the mind ( small m) performing two functions. One is AMPP and the other is intellectual reaction to AMPP.
So that we are always projecting, which is automatic, and we are always reacting to the projection of our own making, making endless, feverish analyses without being really aware of our own qualifying, catalytic action upon the environmantal picture.
So that AMPP is automatic and unconscious. The reaction is generally automatic also and might be described as being semi-conscious when it reacts in self-observation, or in the analysis of the thought processes.
Mind, (capital M) is aware of the whole above tail-chasing.
When we are fully aware of the processes of the Manifested Mind, it becomes apparent that even concepts, or explanations, such as this entire work, are conditional and relative. So that in looking from the viewpoint of the Unmanifested Mind, it does not matter if you believe all this or not … it matters only that you look inside.
Find out for yourself, who your Ultimate Observer is.
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